The Horror 6 comments

Posted by grampa in health,the real shit (Thursday January 10, 2008 at 3:03 pm)

I’m currently detoxing from sleep meds, after nearly fourteen months of continuous use.  I had to start taking them when I was on the interferon, but I figured that it was time to get off.

I’m still able to work, but part of this feeling is similar to that of heroin withdrawal - you get the whole body shakes, the hot/cold flashes, the multiple sneezes/runny nose, the general lethargy and I’m restless, irritable and discontent. The only thing really missing is the aching bones and constant diarrhea.

I’m able to work and live, but just feel generally like shit  But I’ve been much, much worse.  I also know that it won’t last very long.  The hardest part – is not drinking coffee after noon to “try and develop healthy sleep habits.” 

Yeah, we’ll see how long that fuck’n lasts.  The first day I can’t drag my sorry ass to the gym after work, that shit’s out the window.

The sickest part of the whole experience – it’s like a familiar misery.  I remember this feeling from jonesing for dope.  It brings back memories, some good, others quite tragic.  It’s like hooking up with an old girlfriend who is a fantastic fuck but every waking moment with the bitch is pure hell.

But, I made four years clean and sober on December 12th, so that’s something.

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Sending good thoughts and hopes that you’re better every day…
Four precious years :-)

Comment by One Wink — Thursday.January.10.2008 @ 5:05 pm

Four years is no easy thing. And hopefully you’ve gotten some perspective on What It Takes and also that You Can Do It, so that the sleep meds will be no big deal. Also, that way you don’t have to read books with titles like “What It Takes” and “You Can Do It”. :)

Comment by mia — Thursday.January.10.2008 @ 9:32 pm

so it’s kinda like having kids in school- bringing every disease/virus home, every day…..except without that sleeping part…..and that great fucking part….and that “high” pay-off. But that familiar misery, I feel ya boobie.

I have to go wipe an ass now, then pee outta my own ass, and then make breakfast. It’s currently sleeting in Ohio.

have a magical,sunshiny day… twitchy, island fuck.

Comment by yow-servation — Friday.January.11.2008 @ 2:54 am

mia – I’ve already lived “What it Takes” and “I Can Do It,” my memories are quite enough, no books will be needed until I write my own.

Thanks, Wink.

And Ron, I’ll send you some pictures of sunny Kohola Coast to warm your cold, black heart. Luv Ya!

Comment by grampa — Friday.January.11.2008 @ 6:40 am

Don’t make me fight dirty….remember, I still drink.

Comment by Truth be unto Yow — Friday.January.11.2008 @ 10:10 am

hot damn let’s party it up! a person asked me that one time, if we celebrate by getting drunk. fair enough i thought.

i’ve yet to develop healthy sleeping habits, which means i’m going to hate myself around 70 years of age.

Comment by piglet — Tuesday.January.15.2008 @ 6:33 am

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